To day has been unbelieviably busy for me. Both in the physical and in the mental....sometimes I wish I could just turn off my brain. I think I may get over stimulated by the computer. (I think that is possible...)
Anyway, I am finishing up schooling lessons for the week, cleaning house, doing laundry and packing for a ladies retreat this weekend. I honestly would not be going if it weren't for the fact that a friend of mine is leading it...otherwise I would be home this weekend probably putting in my concrete block compost bin. Oh, well...
I know that God has things for me to do...and He is with me, so I am just going to keep on keeping on until everything gets done. I hope I can get it done tonight, so tomorrow can be a peaceful day prior to traveling to Williamsburg for the retreat.
There is something (actually many things) on my mind. I love to read Christian Women's Blogs. I glean a great deal from them, but I am becoming more and more frustrated with them, too. (It is probably just today...I am a bit out of sorts!) Anyway, if my house is not all color coordinated, done with flowers everywhere and have spit shine floors....does this make me less of a Christian woman, wife and homemaker. I know I have let things slide, but I must confess....I am getting really bogged down in trying to be the perfect Christian wife and homemaker......I cannot have a home like the ones in all the pretty paintings and pictures. I try....Maybe, I should just not concentrate on the house and stay with what will never be taken away from me. Spending time with JESUS. This does brings me peace. I am such a Martha...and I need to be a Mary. I guess we all deal with this once in awhile. Hmmm......
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Autumnal thoughts...
The days of autumn are definately upon the Beale Bungalow. The leaves are finally falling and the seasonal local festivals are in full swing. Pumpkins are being butchered by the thousands and placed on front porches all across my area. (I prefer to keep my pumpkins whole and then make them into soup...yum!) Anyway....autumn has finally arrived and I am loving it. After all, it is my favorite time of the year. I have been in such a slump that anything that stirs up excitement is gladly welcomed, so the seasonal changes are being much appreciated by this Lady of the House.
I am in the mood to finally get my composting structure built. I want to use the cement block type of composting bin. It will take about 50 blocks. It will probably cost about $80.00 to make, but it will last a lifetime and I will be able to move it--if I choose to do so. I already have some horse manure, living table scraps, and leaves....all I need to do is go and get the blocks, put them into place and presto....The Beale Backyard Barnyard will be on its way to a reality. I am hoping to do this sometime this week. My son and I can work together and learn about the benefits of composting and permaculture at the same time. :)
The house is also in much need of a good cleaning and decluttering. I am trying to find out a way to do this as painless as possible. I prefer to do these types of jobs in an empty house, but that is a rare phenomena here....so I need to come up with a plan of action. I am sure God will give me one. I pray that my motives will be right during this process, since I havc a tendency to become vain about my home. We will see.
Speaking of God....he has been speaking LOUDLY here lately. I have allowed satan so many footholds in my life that I am a mess and thank goodness God knows this. He is working and I am seeing victory in some areas of this appointed life I have been so richly blessed with. I need a good Bible study though. Just to sit and read the Bible doesn't do much for me.....I need a reachable goal and something to write on. That is how I learn and do things. He is still preaching, reaching and teaching me.....and this is a great comfort. Climbing back up is sure harder that falling down.
Well....that is all for now. God Bless!
I am in the mood to finally get my composting structure built. I want to use the cement block type of composting bin. It will take about 50 blocks. It will probably cost about $80.00 to make, but it will last a lifetime and I will be able to move it--if I choose to do so. I already have some horse manure, living table scraps, and leaves....all I need to do is go and get the blocks, put them into place and presto....The Beale Backyard Barnyard will be on its way to a reality. I am hoping to do this sometime this week. My son and I can work together and learn about the benefits of composting and permaculture at the same time. :)
The house is also in much need of a good cleaning and decluttering. I am trying to find out a way to do this as painless as possible. I prefer to do these types of jobs in an empty house, but that is a rare phenomena here....so I need to come up with a plan of action. I am sure God will give me one. I pray that my motives will be right during this process, since I havc a tendency to become vain about my home. We will see.
Speaking of God....he has been speaking LOUDLY here lately. I have allowed satan so many footholds in my life that I am a mess and thank goodness God knows this. He is working and I am seeing victory in some areas of this appointed life I have been so richly blessed with. I need a good Bible study though. Just to sit and read the Bible doesn't do much for me.....I need a reachable goal and something to write on. That is how I learn and do things. He is still preaching, reaching and teaching me.....and this is a great comfort. Climbing back up is sure harder that falling down.
Well....that is all for now. God Bless!
Friday, October 22, 2010
Grace and Mercy
Life has been difficult since my first entry. It seems that I am a dried branch that has fallen off the True Vine. It amazes me how fast and unwittingly this can and does happen. It usually takes a wound to my heart to get me back on track. This time was different...It took a wound to my Saviour's heart for me to see how withered and fruitless I have become. This took years to come about, but only and instant to see the pain I was causing Jesus.
Now, have I murdered, stolen, abused anyone...NO! But, I have abdicated the majority of my responsiblities as a wife and a mother. I do believe it has been all about me here lately. Therefore, my world has been quite small, lonely and totally out of sorts.
This has been reflected in my homekeeping (I used to be so fastidious), in our homeschooling lessons, in my church life, private thoughts, and even personal hygiene. Depression is a hard task master...robbing one of everything precious and valuable. Hmm...who does that sound like!
It seems this blog is going to be (for awhile at least) about my journey back to Jesus, thus my family and friends. Not a bad topic for one who has been in the dark for so long. I have sinned in so many little ways that the light went out and I was in spiritual darkness trying my best to smile though it. Yet, in a twinkling of and eye...God spoke and showed me his heart. What does that bumper sticker say? I am not perfect...just forgiven. Mercy and Grace have been graciously bestowed upon me. Grace...oh that sweet Grace of Jesus Christ! "Moreover the law entered, that the offence might abound. But where sin abounded, grace did much more abound:" Romans 5:20.
So, today is a nice clean new day....I do believe I see the Son shining in my heart and the sun shining outside my window.....
Now, have I murdered, stolen, abused anyone...NO! But, I have abdicated the majority of my responsiblities as a wife and a mother. I do believe it has been all about me here lately. Therefore, my world has been quite small, lonely and totally out of sorts.
This has been reflected in my homekeeping (I used to be so fastidious), in our homeschooling lessons, in my church life, private thoughts, and even personal hygiene. Depression is a hard task master...robbing one of everything precious and valuable. Hmm...who does that sound like!
It seems this blog is going to be (for awhile at least) about my journey back to Jesus, thus my family and friends. Not a bad topic for one who has been in the dark for so long. I have sinned in so many little ways that the light went out and I was in spiritual darkness trying my best to smile though it. Yet, in a twinkling of and eye...God spoke and showed me his heart. What does that bumper sticker say? I am not perfect...just forgiven. Mercy and Grace have been graciously bestowed upon me. Grace...oh that sweet Grace of Jesus Christ! "Moreover the law entered, that the offence might abound. But where sin abounded, grace did much more abound:" Romans 5:20.
So, today is a nice clean new day....I do believe I see the Son shining in my heart and the sun shining outside my window.....
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