Life has been difficult since my first entry. It seems that I am a dried branch that has fallen off the True Vine. It amazes me how fast and unwittingly this can and does happen. It usually takes a wound to my heart to get me back on track. This time was different...It took a wound to my Saviour's heart for me to see how withered and fruitless I have become. This took years to come about, but only and instant to see the pain I was causing Jesus.
Now, have I murdered, stolen, abused anyone...NO! But, I have abdicated the majority of my responsiblities as a wife and a mother. I do believe it has been all about me here lately. Therefore, my world has been quite small, lonely and totally out of sorts.
This has been reflected in my homekeeping (I used to be so fastidious), in our homeschooling lessons, in my church life, private thoughts, and even personal hygiene. Depression is a hard task master...robbing one of everything precious and valuable. Hmm...who does that sound like!
It seems this blog is going to be (for awhile at least) about my journey back to Jesus, thus my family and friends. Not a bad topic for one who has been in the dark for so long. I have sinned in so many little ways that the light went out and I was in spiritual darkness trying my best to smile though it. Yet, in a twinkling of and eye...God spoke and showed me his heart. What does that bumper sticker say? I am not perfect...just forgiven. Mercy and Grace have been graciously bestowed upon me. Grace...oh that sweet Grace of Jesus Christ! "Moreover the law entered, that the offence might abound. But where sin abounded, grace did much more abound:" Romans 5:20.
So, today is a nice clean new day....I do believe I see the Son shining in my heart and the sun shining outside my window.....
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